Mom

Does it seem silly now that Garrett is in preschool and I have two kids I feel more like a mom and do more mom-like things? I am fast approaching being a mommy for nearly 4 years, not counting all the months I had him in my belly, but not until the past year or so I really started to think of myself as a “mom”. To me growing up Mom’s were so many things and I really didn’t associate myself as a “mom” for quite a while. It’s been a hard label to accept. Don’t get me wrong, the label is not bad in any kind of way. It’s more glorified than anything; I just never really felt it fit me until lately. Now I am embracing it! MOM J

The call to the sitter...

I have lucked out the past 3 ½ years or so…. I have never really had to hire a babysitter. We have always had family or friends that could watch our kids for us. We have been thinking of hiring someone for the past year to watch our kids on an occasional basis; however the idea of it has completely frightened me. Which is silly since I started babysitting other people’s kids at the age of 12! I had no problem taking care of kids and babies were never really a problem. But the idea of a kid taking care of my kids’ kind of freaks me out.

It took me a while to get used to them…. I feel like I am punishing someone to watch them that don’t know them! They really are good kids, and usually only act out when I am around! What is my deal?!

So the time has come. A very, very close friend of our family has passed away and we must get a sitter as there is no way I will miss the service nor will anyone in my family. I have it all arranged, and I am really excited to be able to go stress free and be with my family, however, the call to the sitter was one of the hardest I have had to make! She seems wonderful and highly recommended. I hope she will like the kids enough to do it again. I cannot believe I am so neurotic to freak about this. Has anyone else gone through the anxiety of this? Or am I completely deranged?!